Barrier

It's been long since I've last posted. Ideas will never stop flowing through one's mind so that point is definitely off. I write posts according to the thought flowing through my mind when things happen, change or anything. Things like that will never stop so that point is gone as well. The reason I stopped for so long is because many things that went through my mind has been things I wish not to disclose to public. The year will end soon and a new beginning is coming. Not only will the year be new many things will. Not to mention, even myself will probably change. Might elaborate on next post now lets get on with current post.

People form a barrier on other people. Barriers are formed both intentionally and unintentionally at different times and situations. Some people choose to form barrier to keep distance from negative people for example. This is what known as an intentional barrier. Unintentional barrier meanwhile would be something like maybe people with their ex couples even though it doesn’t apply to everyone. Well, the important thing is the point is understood.

To have barriers forming around you has its good and bad. Good is people won’t be able to harm you or influence you and bad is you can’t really get friends. Well, to have barriers is fine but not to keep it on at all times is very important. Not having a barrier wouldn’t be bad either as long as you keep your own stand and beliefs. To keep distance without forming barrier is possible actually. It simply means to be friends but not hang out together.

Barriers aren’t only for the whole of a person. It can be only working to block your mind from others. There are many who choose to keep their mind within their own barrier not letting anyone see through it. Most people who are like this have a different thinking compared to an average person. It might not be of great thinking but it’s definitely different.

Personally I somehow kind of have a barrier confining my own thoughts and blocking others from knowing. To keep all of the thinking to you isn’t a very nice thing to do. At some point there will be a feeling of loneliness as there’s none who really understands you. Another thing is you’ll feel like letting it out but some things you just don’t want to let people know. That point is where I choose to write diary.

Points where I want to let people know I actually choose to write it out. At many times I am unable to say out what I want to. It may be because of I don’t know how to say or I don’t dare to say. Due to being unable to express self through speech I resort to express myself through writing. It’s not that I couldn’t talk properly or have trouble thinking of what to say but it’s just I don’t dare to speak and also I wouldn’t speak if I’m not sure of what to. That’s what forming my barrier, it’s not that I want to.

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Yu

Advices

People always get to a point where they do not know what to do. At these times they often seek for help from people, books or other sources. Actually, anyone can give good advices. The only reason one cannot give advices is the situation cannot be fully understood or the person’s mind is clouded. Actually the advices given by others can easily be thought out by one self. The reason one does not get to do so is because when being in the problem itself, people cannot think properly.

The advices given by others actually may come out as an advice one has given to others before. It’s actually quite normal for that to happen. It’s just because other people have a clear mind while the person in it do not. There are actually many things I have written in this blog which I have forgotten. As I go through my own blog I can see a lot of things I have not done myself. Just as an example I’ll say about the self-confidence point. One of my best points is actually the self-confidence. I’ve written that before, I’ve told myself that before and I’ve told others before but there are times I forget about it. Having no self-confidence I’m left as an ordinary or maybe below average person in certain things.

Another point that cannot be left out is to say is easier than doing. Many advices can be given but how many can be done by the person who says them? There are things that are easier for some to do and harder for some as well. Even though you can do it doesn’t mean others can. It’s not only the ability and skill that affects it but also the mind. Though there are ways to overcome them but for many cases it requires quite an amount of time and also opportunities to do so.

To conclude what I said, at troubled times always try to clear your mind or just seek for help. Refreshing your memories on your past ideas or advices to others may come in handy as well. But no matter how hard things are for you to do there won’t be a ‘can’t’ it’s always a can, only maybe there are other things needed for it to be done. Writing down your thoughts and ideas like what I’m doing now is very good as well. It may help other and it may help you in the future as well.

Your past may teach your present.

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Yu

Teaching

Teaching doesn’t only apply on education though. Teaching also includes the teaching of religion, way of life and things like that. There are different styles of teaching by different kinds of people. Some may choose to just make people remember, some may choose to teach by punishment and reward way and some may even choose to tell them their own story or experience. There are other methods of course but the best method is definitely by telling them the logic so that they understand why.

People who do not know about thing will ask why. Reasons are very important for one to decide whether or not to follow, apply or even remembering. Many people do not understand this principle and just keep saying the surface of things like don’t this, don’t that or that’s not right, this is right. They just neglect the very important thing which is ’why?’. That is definitely the most important thing to be told if you want people to follow, apply or remember.

If we go into the education world, many teachers tend to neglect telling student the reasons things happen. Maybe it’s because they themselves don’t know, maybe they don’t bother or maybe they just don’t realize how important it is. I do not know the reason but I can assure you by telling the reasons the students will do better. There are good teachers who do not neglect this fact of course and the difference of the effectiveness of their lessons can clearly be seen.

On the religions, I do not wish to touch as religions are very sensitive issues and I fear I might offend someone or cause small commotions. Therefore, I will go straight to the teaching of life. For parents, many parents do not know that by punishing and scolding the children will not change. In fact, many children tend to be rebellious. They’ll just do the opposite of what you tell them to do. How many children are rebellious towards their parents I do not know but I can definitely say I am a rebellious person.

There’s just no use telling me things without reason. I’ll just take it as crap if the reason is untold. What I require is a logic that I understand and can accept. The logic of what I’m saying is people remember the reasons or logic better. Humans are intellectual beings. We can use the logics and reasons to create things. Pure remembering and applying is not good enough. The situation differs every time and therefore there will be changes required but with the same logic or reason. That is why we have to answer the ‘why?’ every time.

Don’t just tell people how, tell them why.

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Yu

High? Low?

There are many things that go high and low around us. It may be the seriousness or number of problems, the spirit we have, our confidence or even the expectation of our own ability. Problems will definitely go high and low, it’s an unavoidable fact. Our spirit however goes high and low as it is affected by other factors which are usually problems. Confidence goes the same way as well accept it is usually affected by the things we hear or see instead of problems. Now we’ll go to the expectation of own ability. It goes high and low affected by our own actions. We can truly observe our ability when we truly do that thing.

Recently I’ve went for the JOTI event for Petaling district in Sri KL primary school. I am the representative of my troop due to my troop leader being a JOTI crew for the event. At the same time I was also the PL of my patrol in the camp. It is not the first time for me being the leader of something but I still can’t do it properly. I once again failed thoroughly as a leader. I have a very big problem which shouldn’t exist in leaders. I have a problem talking with stranger especially girls. In other words, I’m a very shy young man. For all this years this problem of mine has been a obstruction for me to becoming a leader and also being friends with girls.

Maybe a month ago I was thinking of myself as a person with very high capabilities. Through a few things in this month, this expectation of mine had a drop, a drastic drop. I realized what problems I’ve been having since I was small still exist till now. My mind was totally disturbed due to this. My emotions are having a little problem as well. In other words, my mood is like low, bad. I will still try to remain normal but if I do anything stupid, turn angry or serious suddenly or something like that please tell me but please forgive me. Of course, I would definitely apologize sincerely if I know I do wrong but you got to make sure I know.

Different people have different good and bad points. That’s true, very true but being shy and you’re definitely at a disadvantage, a very big one. There’s just countless of things that require communication among different peoples whom you’ve never even heard of in your life. Can’t talk to them? Sorry, that’s it. You’ll be failing your tasks because of that. The effects of failing them might range from nothing to losing things. People always tell me shyness can be conquered as you grow older, as time passes. Until this day, maybe I have improved but I am definitely still shy.

Different matters just appear in our lives. They may appear to be different in the degree of its importance in different people’s eyes as well as in different conditions. For example the matter of being shy, maybe it isn’t that big of a deal in some people’s opinion but as a person who wants to be head, it’s definitely important. I got to go through this obstacle to be able to become a good head next time. Basically it’s like that. So regardless of what others say, try your best to eliminate the matter as soon as possible.

Never think of low, just get it all high.

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Yu

Poetry No.2

Rainbows

Rainbows in the night,
Rainbows in the day,
Rainbows are still at sight,
But their beauty is not the same,

When rainbows appear everyday,
It’s just multiple colors in the sky,
If rainbow appears never again,
It's magnificent beauty that just went by,

People dream of touching the rainbows,
People dream of walking on rainbows,
People dream of dancing in rainbows
But none dream of seeing a rainbow,

Rainbows are known as a magical beauty,
A beauty that appears all over the world,
Tales, stories, poems of this theme,
Very commonly written and told,

Rainbow Bridge a place for spirits,
Spirits of animals that lost their life,
A story that has gain popularity,
A story that might just be a lie,

Sunrays shining through water droplets,
An arc in the sky multicolored,
Magical stories are still created,
Where rainbows are the bridge to heaven,

This is my 2nd poem for public. It's still just a poem for interest so yeah, it's just for fun and to fill time usefully.

Different

Every single person is different. There won’t be two people you can find that will be exactly the same. Even so, people still tend to categorize others in large groups. For example, there are modern people and old school people, playful look and professional look, cool people and lame people and many other different categories. Of course, there is a type called hybrid. This type is the type that mixes two different or opposite types in 1. Hybrid doesn’t mean it belongs on both side though. It’s actually a totally different type that exists by itself.

From the meaning of it hybrid sounds like a type that is of two types but it’s not the way it seems actually. The elements of the two types will mix together and create a new type and not just 2 in 1. In the end, hybrid won’t actually be completely accepted anywhere. Of course nowadays it won’t be that much of a problem. I mean, you won’t see a person gets ignored or disregarded just because he is of a different type. Usually people are treated that way either by people who are immoral or because they are immoral themselves.

The same principle applies on friends. People who always hang out with more than 1 group of friends will end up being in no group at all. From what I know, people who are lost and don’t belong anywhere tend to want to become acknowledged by everyone. They will tend to be very spirited to making people acknowledge them as “someone”. Hybrids and people who have no group are this type of people. People who are both are of course worse.

I believe that hybrids are actually better in many ways. Everything has its pros and cons. That’s the way the world works but they are imbalance at most times. In this case I believe hybrids have more pros than cons. Humans are very special, at many times we will automatically take the relevant characteristics rather than the irrelevant ones. Which is why I think hybrid will be better. If you watch something like bleach, the hybrids are the ones that are exceptionally strong.

Well, after all I believe that I am kind of a hybrid and I also believe that I am especially good. As I mentioned in 1 of my previous post, I am also a person with no group. But then what I want is to be acknowledged as someone different and great. It’s my desire to be different, to be special. Even though everyone is special, in normal cases people will still categorize you. What I want is to be so different that none can find any category to put me into.

Well, the main point is not that actually. It is certain that every single one of us is special and we should be proud of being different, being special. We shouldn’t try to be like others, we should concentrate in being our special self. Rather than trying to following the footsteps of a great person, make the greatest of your own. No matter how good you do following the person, people will remember you as a mimic of the person and not yourself. So be yourself and bring our the greatest of you.

Don't follow the greatest person, be the greatest of yourself

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Yu

Aims and Dreams

After one week and here I am writing again. What is a difference between a dream and an aim? A dream is usually just what people hope to someday achieve or have while aim is what they plan to work towards. Not all dreams remain a dream. There are cases where dreams becoming an aim someday. Things that are once thought impossible might be found out as something possible someday. Many existing things nowadays are here because of people’s dreams. For example, people once thought that a machine flying is impossible and now people are flying here and there like it’s a part of life.

I absolutely agree that people should at least have a dream. Whether or not it becomes an aim is another matter but it’s still good to have a dream. Even so, one must not be too obsessed on dreams and forget about aims. It’s more important to have an aim than to have a dream. One should look far beyond what the current logic tells but it is important to look in the world with logic as well. It is very unlikely that you can find something out there. That is why you have to get an aim which is far more probable than a dream. Of course, the best is having both of them.

People tend to have multiple aims and dreams they want to achieve. It is not wrong to have multiple aims but there must be a primary one. If there isn’t an aim that is primary, you’ll either end up in confusion or your spirit, effort and everything will be divided. With a primary one, you can put in full force in working towards the aim and you’ll be certain where you want to go. Other aims are just to act as a backup incase anything goes wrong. So basically it’s like just having 1 aim and switching it when something is making you unable to achieve it.

Dreams are different in this case. Multiple dreams aren’t a bad thing. Even having hundreds of them wouldn’t cause any problem. In fact, the more dreams you have, the higher is the chance that there would be one becoming reality. Even if none of it becomes reality it wouldn’t do anything to you so why not just have more of them. I’m not telling people to get more of it though. Even I myself don’t have many dreams. I only care about the most desired dreams of mine. Others I just let it be forgotten. I feel there’s no point even if others become true because it’s not like it’s one of the most important things. But then again, it depends on people so you should decide for yourself

I have multiple aims actually and currently the 1^st aim is to be a successful educator. Even so I don’t want to finalize my aim with just that. I want to do invest or do my own business with the money I earn. As I get more money I want to just invest and make an early retirement. Basically my final aim is to make an early retirement with enough money to invest in something I don’t need to always look into. In other words I want to retire young with money still coming in. If money is not enough or it’s time to settle down but there’s nothing to do then I’ll go back into the working world after the many years of enjoyment. The working world must be the field I like of course.

Dreams I do have more than one but I guess I’ll only mention 1. There’s 1 dream that’s been always in my mind lately, the dream to be a great man respected by the world. I always imagine that I am a special person born with special abilities with a special mission to achieve. It’s not like a hero saving the world from evil of course. That would be a small kid’s imagination. I imagine that maybe I can somehow make people realize something or maybe do something. For example, I can somehow make people become scared of something like global warming and everyone follow the ways to save the world from something like what happened in the movie “The Day After Tomorrow”. A greater but very much less probable example would be I’m able to change people’s thinking and stop doing sins and thus creating a utopia.

Even though that dream of mine has quite a low probability to become reality, I believe that someday I will be “somebody”. I believe my thinking and ability is amazing enough to bring me far and make me become “somebody” one day. This is not a dream but neither is it an aim, it is a belief. Now tell me, do you think my belief is true? I’m serious. I really want people’s opinion on this. Please give me your opinion whether it’s good or bad.

Aim with logic, dream without.

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Yu