Alone

I never really like being alone but it so happens I always end up being alone. The truth is being alone is not so bad at all if I'm meant to be alone but that's not the case.

In a crowd of friend, parties or events with many people I know, I still somehow or rather end up being alone. (with exception to certain groups of people) However that's still not much of a problem to me as it's pretty normal.

What's worse is where I'm usually not alone, I turn out to be alone. The feeling of abandonment, straying off from the group. Losing something that was once there. With no expectation there won't be disappointment but when there is, there's bound to be.