Quiet

It’s been so many months since I’ve written anything here. I’ve been looking back into the past a lot lately. Thinking back how I was years before. Thinking back the days where I was still sitting in the corner, hiding from being chosen, looking out the window with thoughts flowing in mind, always being emo with things thought up by self, talk only to friends, always doubting myself and keeps everything to myself. Comparing back how much I’ve changed all these years.

True enough I’ve managed to improve drastically but the truth is deep inside those parts of me still remains. I have to constantly reassure myself to keep myself in track. That’s not that big of a problem as long as I can keep it. The thing is, this isn’t enough. I have to go further. I need to stop the doubt that makes me consider. The doubt that makes me delay my words and actions which in turn makes me miss a lot of chances.

You really think I like keeping quiet? Your really think I like to think so much before I speak? It’s my true base nature of doubting myself acting up (Other than the times where I wasn’t paying attention and I haven’t registered what I just heard). Just because I’m quiet I’m neglected, forgotten, unnoticed? Quite screwed up isn’t it? I really can’t stay remaining like this. I’ve always been giving advice and all. In this case I’m really stuck. Can someone teach me how?