High? Low?

There are many things that go high and low around us. It may be the seriousness or number of problems, the spirit we have, our confidence or even the expectation of our own ability. Problems will definitely go high and low, it’s an unavoidable fact. Our spirit however goes high and low as it is affected by other factors which are usually problems. Confidence goes the same way as well accept it is usually affected by the things we hear or see instead of problems. Now we’ll go to the expectation of own ability. It goes high and low affected by our own actions. We can truly observe our ability when we truly do that thing.

Recently I’ve went for the JOTI event for Petaling district in Sri KL primary school. I am the representative of my troop due to my troop leader being a JOTI crew for the event. At the same time I was also the PL of my patrol in the camp. It is not the first time for me being the leader of something but I still can’t do it properly. I once again failed thoroughly as a leader. I have a very big problem which shouldn’t exist in leaders. I have a problem talking with stranger especially girls. In other words, I’m a very shy young man. For all this years this problem of mine has been a obstruction for me to becoming a leader and also being friends with girls.

Maybe a month ago I was thinking of myself as a person with very high capabilities. Through a few things in this month, this expectation of mine had a drop, a drastic drop. I realized what problems I’ve been having since I was small still exist till now. My mind was totally disturbed due to this. My emotions are having a little problem as well. In other words, my mood is like low, bad. I will still try to remain normal but if I do anything stupid, turn angry or serious suddenly or something like that please tell me but please forgive me. Of course, I would definitely apologize sincerely if I know I do wrong but you got to make sure I know.

Different people have different good and bad points. That’s true, very true but being shy and you’re definitely at a disadvantage, a very big one. There’s just countless of things that require communication among different peoples whom you’ve never even heard of in your life. Can’t talk to them? Sorry, that’s it. You’ll be failing your tasks because of that. The effects of failing them might range from nothing to losing things. People always tell me shyness can be conquered as you grow older, as time passes. Until this day, maybe I have improved but I am definitely still shy.

Different matters just appear in our lives. They may appear to be different in the degree of its importance in different people’s eyes as well as in different conditions. For example the matter of being shy, maybe it isn’t that big of a deal in some people’s opinion but as a person who wants to be head, it’s definitely important. I got to go through this obstacle to be able to become a good head next time. Basically it’s like that. So regardless of what others say, try your best to eliminate the matter as soon as possible.

Never think of low, just get it all high.

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Yu

Poetry No.2

Rainbows

Rainbows in the night,
Rainbows in the day,
Rainbows are still at sight,
But their beauty is not the same,

When rainbows appear everyday,
It’s just multiple colors in the sky,
If rainbow appears never again,
It's magnificent beauty that just went by,

People dream of touching the rainbows,
People dream of walking on rainbows,
People dream of dancing in rainbows
But none dream of seeing a rainbow,

Rainbows are known as a magical beauty,
A beauty that appears all over the world,
Tales, stories, poems of this theme,
Very commonly written and told,

Rainbow Bridge a place for spirits,
Spirits of animals that lost their life,
A story that has gain popularity,
A story that might just be a lie,

Sunrays shining through water droplets,
An arc in the sky multicolored,
Magical stories are still created,
Where rainbows are the bridge to heaven,

This is my 2nd poem for public. It's still just a poem for interest so yeah, it's just for fun and to fill time usefully.

Different

Every single person is different. There won’t be two people you can find that will be exactly the same. Even so, people still tend to categorize others in large groups. For example, there are modern people and old school people, playful look and professional look, cool people and lame people and many other different categories. Of course, there is a type called hybrid. This type is the type that mixes two different or opposite types in 1. Hybrid doesn’t mean it belongs on both side though. It’s actually a totally different type that exists by itself.

From the meaning of it hybrid sounds like a type that is of two types but it’s not the way it seems actually. The elements of the two types will mix together and create a new type and not just 2 in 1. In the end, hybrid won’t actually be completely accepted anywhere. Of course nowadays it won’t be that much of a problem. I mean, you won’t see a person gets ignored or disregarded just because he is of a different type. Usually people are treated that way either by people who are immoral or because they are immoral themselves.

The same principle applies on friends. People who always hang out with more than 1 group of friends will end up being in no group at all. From what I know, people who are lost and don’t belong anywhere tend to want to become acknowledged by everyone. They will tend to be very spirited to making people acknowledge them as “someone”. Hybrids and people who have no group are this type of people. People who are both are of course worse.

I believe that hybrids are actually better in many ways. Everything has its pros and cons. That’s the way the world works but they are imbalance at most times. In this case I believe hybrids have more pros than cons. Humans are very special, at many times we will automatically take the relevant characteristics rather than the irrelevant ones. Which is why I think hybrid will be better. If you watch something like bleach, the hybrids are the ones that are exceptionally strong.

Well, after all I believe that I am kind of a hybrid and I also believe that I am especially good. As I mentioned in 1 of my previous post, I am also a person with no group. But then what I want is to be acknowledged as someone different and great. It’s my desire to be different, to be special. Even though everyone is special, in normal cases people will still categorize you. What I want is to be so different that none can find any category to put me into.

Well, the main point is not that actually. It is certain that every single one of us is special and we should be proud of being different, being special. We shouldn’t try to be like others, we should concentrate in being our special self. Rather than trying to following the footsteps of a great person, make the greatest of your own. No matter how good you do following the person, people will remember you as a mimic of the person and not yourself. So be yourself and bring our the greatest of you.

Don't follow the greatest person, be the greatest of yourself

End
Yu