High? Low?

There are many things that go high and low around us. It may be the seriousness or number of problems, the spirit we have, our confidence or even the expectation of our own ability. Problems will definitely go high and low, it’s an unavoidable fact. Our spirit however goes high and low as it is affected by other factors which are usually problems. Confidence goes the same way as well accept it is usually affected by the things we hear or see instead of problems. Now we’ll go to the expectation of own ability. It goes high and low affected by our own actions. We can truly observe our ability when we truly do that thing.

Recently I’ve went for the JOTI event for Petaling district in Sri KL primary school. I am the representative of my troop due to my troop leader being a JOTI crew for the event. At the same time I was also the PL of my patrol in the camp. It is not the first time for me being the leader of something but I still can’t do it properly. I once again failed thoroughly as a leader. I have a very big problem which shouldn’t exist in leaders. I have a problem talking with stranger especially girls. In other words, I’m a very shy young man. For all this years this problem of mine has been a obstruction for me to becoming a leader and also being friends with girls.

Maybe a month ago I was thinking of myself as a person with very high capabilities. Through a few things in this month, this expectation of mine had a drop, a drastic drop. I realized what problems I’ve been having since I was small still exist till now. My mind was totally disturbed due to this. My emotions are having a little problem as well. In other words, my mood is like low, bad. I will still try to remain normal but if I do anything stupid, turn angry or serious suddenly or something like that please tell me but please forgive me. Of course, I would definitely apologize sincerely if I know I do wrong but you got to make sure I know.

Different people have different good and bad points. That’s true, very true but being shy and you’re definitely at a disadvantage, a very big one. There’s just countless of things that require communication among different peoples whom you’ve never even heard of in your life. Can’t talk to them? Sorry, that’s it. You’ll be failing your tasks because of that. The effects of failing them might range from nothing to losing things. People always tell me shyness can be conquered as you grow older, as time passes. Until this day, maybe I have improved but I am definitely still shy.

Different matters just appear in our lives. They may appear to be different in the degree of its importance in different people’s eyes as well as in different conditions. For example the matter of being shy, maybe it isn’t that big of a deal in some people’s opinion but as a person who wants to be head, it’s definitely important. I got to go through this obstacle to be able to become a good head next time. Basically it’s like that. So regardless of what others say, try your best to eliminate the matter as soon as possible.

Never think of low, just get it all high.

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Yu