Age

Age is a timer on how long it has been since we were born into this world. It's an easy way to estimate which stage of life is a person in. Other than that it should be just a number.

Many people as the number get higher they get more and more concious of it. We worry that we hit the next stage of our life before fulfilling our targets set to be fulfilled within our current stage.

I believe we shouldn't worry too much about the number. No matter what age we are at, it shouldn't be a factor as to what we want to do. Age should never be an excuse to stop us from doing something we want to.

Age is just a number

Maturity

Maturity comes as we grow up but what do I really mean by growing up isn't just growing older. We grow up when we go through different experiences in life and we learn from these experiences. Age isn't proportional to it but we can't say age doesn't make a difference because chances are an old man would've went through a lot more in life than a kid in his teenage years.

However, there is no certainty in maturity with age because some people may not have much impacting experiences and some may not learn from their past experiences. On the other hand, there may be kids exposed to life changing experiences at a young age forcing them to grow up early.

A matured grown man may sometimes behave like an immature kid when things aren't serious. Every man has a boy inside but that doesn't mean they're any less mature in their thinking. A matured person knows when they can't behave like an immature kid but that doesn't stop them from behaving like one when they can.

People mature through experience, not age.

Dreams

We can see everywhere there are quotes, articles, videos and other medias telling us to be daring to dream. Many take heed of the advice and start having dreams, but how many actually take action towards the dream. As we grow up, we tend to consider more and more before taking actions. You could say we become more rational growing up but that is also a limiting factor.

Considerations on the sacrifices we have to make towards our dream, considerations on the risks that will be imposed unto ourselves if we work towards the dream and the considerations of what if we fail to achieve it. These worries become the barricade we put between ourselves and our dreams.

Certainly we have more responsibilities as we grow older. More so if we're at the stage that we need to take care of our family. The risk will no longer only be a risk on ourselves but may be to our family as well and that holds us back. If you've already reached that stage, maybe being rational would be the right choice.

However if you're still young and can afford to lose it all and start all over, why not take the risk? It's true that maybe it will cause things to get tougher for your future, but it might also turn out well and your dreams can be achieved. Dreams are meant to be achieved, but you have to go out and sacrifice, take the risks needed in order to do it. Sometimes we have to be irrational to achieve great things.

Don't limit your dreams with rationality.

Worth

The worth of things are different to every individual. A treasure to you may be rubbish to another and vice versa. So the worth of something really depends on the person who is evaluating its worth. Which is why we shouldn't bother so much when people say that something isn't worth our time, effort or money.

Only we can judge for ourselves is something is worth our sacrifice. There are many things through our path of life where we will find ourselves sacrificing for where people will question if it's worth it. Of course, maybe not every single one of them is worth it but for those that we deem its worthy they are worthy despite what people think.

Then there are those things that we sacrifice a lot for but end up getting hurt from the commitment and pouring our heart out. That I'm not really sure myself if it's worth it but I choose to believe it's a risk that needs to be taken to find the one. And after pouring your heart out loving that someone, there's just no way you could pull it back. If it's sure to not be able to work out, maybe learning to let go is an option.

I think I really want to let go but it doesn't mean I'm giving up on you. I know for now we can't work out, I don't know if it could be different in the future but for 1 year I will wait. However, whatever it is, I will still be here for you. You probably won't even read this but I can't help but to express it out.

Only we can deem if something worthy for our sacrifices.

Expectations

If life there are many times we look forward to something that we expect coming up. However with these expectations we face the risk of disappointment. When things take a different turn from what we expect, our emotions take a different turn downhill as well. And the more we look forward to it the bigger the disappointment will be.

It is human nature for us to expect things and so is the feeling of disappointment. We can choose to doubt every little thing and minimize the expectation but that would in turn cause other issues and I would strongly recommend not to do that. We just got to learn to be ready to face the disappointments if they come.

Trying to stop things from taking a turn isn't really an option as well. What we can control is ourselves but our expectations often revolve not on ourselves but on other people and that's what we can never control. We just got to face that fact and live with it.

Disappointment comes with expectations taking a turn

Unpredictable Tomorrow

Things are bound to change, for better or for worse. Items, system, people, they all change in time. It's part of what makes life so unpredictable. Assuming that the variables will remain the same through the course of time could very well be one of the most naive move to take.

We just have to learn to expect and accommodate changes that happens. What's initially in your favour could turn against you. Naturally to accommodate to the changes, we ourselves have to change as well.

In the process of growing up things around us go through a rather rapid change as we step into different sections of life. Changing is not a bad thing, but be aware of what is changing and take control of your own progress.

Even if we go through many drastic changes, we are still the same person and there is bound to be a base personality retaining with us. Some may choose to cover up the base personality with a mask personality but in the end what we really are is still inside. That is unchangeable and should be accepted and if it's a flaw, cover up with other areas that we're good with.

What's ahead is unpredictable, nothing stays perfectly same

Alone

I never really like being alone but it so happens I always end up being alone. The truth is being alone is not so bad at all if I'm meant to be alone but that's not the case.

In a crowd of friend, parties or events with many people I know, I still somehow or rather end up being alone. (with exception to certain groups of people) However that's still not much of a problem to me as it's pretty normal.

What's worse is where I'm usually not alone, I turn out to be alone. The feeling of abandonment, straying off from the group. Losing something that was once there. With no expectation there won't be disappointment but when there is, there's bound to be.

Emotional

It's been many months since I blogged. I've been emotional, went through an emotional roller coaster. Different things affect different people to a different degree. The same thing may appear small to another but it may not be so to them. The scale of importance of things differ among people.

I've been told that I'm being too emotionally weak as a man. However, a man's heart can really just be so fragile. It's not that I much weaker than most other men are, it's that I prefer not to cover up my feelings. If I feel sad, why should I act like I'm well and happy? Is it really wrong to just show how you feel and not cover it up with false pretence?

Well, I know sometimes being sad brings down the mood of people around you. Maybe that's why I've really been wrong, maybe I should really change.