Aims and Dreams

After one week and here I am writing again. What is a difference between a dream and an aim? A dream is usually just what people hope to someday achieve or have while aim is what they plan to work towards. Not all dreams remain a dream. There are cases where dreams becoming an aim someday. Things that are once thought impossible might be found out as something possible someday. Many existing things nowadays are here because of people’s dreams. For example, people once thought that a machine flying is impossible and now people are flying here and there like it’s a part of life.

I absolutely agree that people should at least have a dream. Whether or not it becomes an aim is another matter but it’s still good to have a dream. Even so, one must not be too obsessed on dreams and forget about aims. It’s more important to have an aim than to have a dream. One should look far beyond what the current logic tells but it is important to look in the world with logic as well. It is very unlikely that you can find something out there. That is why you have to get an aim which is far more probable than a dream. Of course, the best is having both of them.

People tend to have multiple aims and dreams they want to achieve. It is not wrong to have multiple aims but there must be a primary one. If there isn’t an aim that is primary, you’ll either end up in confusion or your spirit, effort and everything will be divided. With a primary one, you can put in full force in working towards the aim and you’ll be certain where you want to go. Other aims are just to act as a backup incase anything goes wrong. So basically it’s like just having 1 aim and switching it when something is making you unable to achieve it.

Dreams are different in this case. Multiple dreams aren’t a bad thing. Even having hundreds of them wouldn’t cause any problem. In fact, the more dreams you have, the higher is the chance that there would be one becoming reality. Even if none of it becomes reality it wouldn’t do anything to you so why not just have more of them. I’m not telling people to get more of it though. Even I myself don’t have many dreams. I only care about the most desired dreams of mine. Others I just let it be forgotten. I feel there’s no point even if others become true because it’s not like it’s one of the most important things. But then again, it depends on people so you should decide for yourself

I have multiple aims actually and currently the 1^st aim is to be a successful educator. Even so I don’t want to finalize my aim with just that. I want to do invest or do my own business with the money I earn. As I get more money I want to just invest and make an early retirement. Basically my final aim is to make an early retirement with enough money to invest in something I don’t need to always look into. In other words I want to retire young with money still coming in. If money is not enough or it’s time to settle down but there’s nothing to do then I’ll go back into the working world after the many years of enjoyment. The working world must be the field I like of course.

Dreams I do have more than one but I guess I’ll only mention 1. There’s 1 dream that’s been always in my mind lately, the dream to be a great man respected by the world. I always imagine that I am a special person born with special abilities with a special mission to achieve. It’s not like a hero saving the world from evil of course. That would be a small kid’s imagination. I imagine that maybe I can somehow make people realize something or maybe do something. For example, I can somehow make people become scared of something like global warming and everyone follow the ways to save the world from something like what happened in the movie “The Day After Tomorrow”. A greater but very much less probable example would be I’m able to change people’s thinking and stop doing sins and thus creating a utopia.

Even though that dream of mine has quite a low probability to become reality, I believe that someday I will be “somebody”. I believe my thinking and ability is amazing enough to bring me far and make me become “somebody” one day. This is not a dream but neither is it an aim, it is a belief. Now tell me, do you think my belief is true? I’m serious. I really want people’s opinion on this. Please give me your opinion whether it’s good or bad.

Aim with logic, dream without.

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Yu

Privacy & Friends

Everyone requires privacy even towards their closest people in life. Most things you would want to express it out but there are some which you do not wish anyone to know. Some people would choose to still tell it out but as an anonymous person and not as themselves. Most of my matters I choose to tell my friends but there are still matters I keep to myself. I’m a person who requires serious privacy. I’ll feel very annoyed when people invade my privacy. No matter there is anything I’m hiding or not the act of invading my privacy is enough to make me very annoyed.

Everyone has their own mindset and thinking. There are reasons a person keeps things as a secret. Invading will do no good. It will only make the person create lies, causing conflict and things like that. People have best friends where they share ups and downs together but no matter how close they are they are not you. They won’t completely understand you no matter what. There will still come to space of your own no matter how close you are to your best friends.

To be honest I don’t believe that anyone knows all the things I do and the things I think about. Usual people have a group of people where they stick with most of the time but that is something I don’t have. I mix around within too many groups and because of that, I end up belonging in none of the groups. From one way you may be seeing that I will be able to join in a group no matter where I go but the concept is not true actually. I usually find myself walking alone.

One of the very weird things is the people who I take as my best friends aren’t the people I hang out most with. But that states a point. Best friends aren’t people you hang out with most, they’re the friends you care and cherish most. Even though people have their best friends but friends who are not best friends are not far behind. I believe friends should be people who care about each other and not just the people you hang out with. Even so at certain time there comes to a point where only a side takes the other as a friend and a 1 way care appeared. Nothing is wrong with that except the person would wish it is 2 way.

Thinking back the past, my closest friends has kept on changing. One of my previous best friends is still my good friend but it seems like there’s a distance now. Until today I have new friends and old friends but then my greatest friend is still my standard 4 friend, Han Liang. Even so, we walk different paths and head to different points. What we aim for is different and thus we won’t be moving on the same path. But as I said, best friends don’t have to be the people you cling with always but the people you care most.

Actually there was I point I actually thought I found friends I can share all of my thoughts spend most of my moments with. Ended up I screwed it up myself. Stupid thing I did right? Full story will be untold in the blog and untold even if you ask me unless I want to tell you. Almost everyone I’m willing to tell to already know the story so that’s it.

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Yu

Exam Tension

Under normal circumstances I believe a person would at least feel a slight tension the day before an exam. The weird thing here is I do not feel any at all. As you can see, the time I am writing this post is 10 minutes to 12am the day before my history and BM end year examination. No doubt the people who have memorized the facts have the possibility of having no tension but I have not even started studying for history. It’s amazing that I can still relax as I continue on to write this post.

Well, why is it that I can still be so relaxed then? In this year I’ve began to have self confidence, no doubt about that. The thing is because of having to high confidence I began to become more arrogant as well. I started to realize that recently and I will try to stop this arrogance of mine. I rarely become humble and I don’t really like being humble. I feel there’s no point doing that, in fact I feel there’s possibility that being humble might shake my confidence.

As I reach this paragraph it’s already 12 o’clock. In one of my previous post I have said confidence doesn’t come from nothing. Without effort confidence will not exist. Until now no effort has been made on my history. That means I can’t have confidence in passing the exam. Does that mean I’m just aiming to fail? Have I become that screwed up? No way is that going to happen to me. The reason I can still relax is because of this night.

Last minute effort is definitely not advisable and the effectiveness of it has a limit. For the past 3 year (from form 2) I have been doing last minute revisions for history, the revision of 1 textbook in 1 night. Definitely to get an A for history with that kind of effort is near 0% but the thing is I do not aim for A. I do not aim grade A for every subject, I aim different grades for different subject. I aim according to how much effort I am willing to put in. I do not aim for what I cannot achieve, I only aim for what I believe I can. Being a realistic person might not be bad but having a dream is a good thing. It is by believing what seemed impossible that made the technology we have now exist.

It’s about time for me to end my post and begin my 1 textbook in 1 night revision. No matter how is my emotion and feeling now it doesn’t matter at all. My self-confidence will still remain even if I’m super sad. But then again, even though I have confidence I may not be behaving like usual. Well, I don’t think that matters. My point is, take exam without tension. Just be chilling like me (chilling like me only, not effort like me).

Exams are nice if you look at it in the right way.

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Yu

Poetry

16 Years of Life

Sitting quietly listening to a clock,
Listening as it goes tik tok tik tok,
Listening to the going by of every second,
Seconds that goes by every now and then,

Reminiscing the past I could never go back,
Events of the past that I can never reset
Regrets I have, satisfactions I had,
Many things happened in this life I led,

I begun with nothing turning to a baby,
Becoming a kid and changing to a teen,
Countless feelings in these 16 years,
Joy, Sorrows and not forgetting fears,

16 years and it’s the year of form 4,
Recent it may be but it’s the best of all,
A year of experience, a year of emotions,
Creating a man who could build up a nation,

Maybe all are destined by God,
But it doesn’t mean we can just sit and rot,
It’s chances that are given by the Lord,
But it’s for us to choose to take it or not.

Things are gained, things are lost,
Many things changed including my thoughts,
It’s due to all the experience I had,
Experience that I will never forget,

Countless memories have flown away,
Some don’t even last for a day,
But these memories of age 16,
They will remain with me for eternity.

This poem is just something I created out of interest. If it is compared to any true poems I believe this poem is like nothing at all. My poem is very straight forward and doesn’t use symbols and stuff. Doing something doesn’t mean you have to be good in it. The most important thing is actually you feel better doing it. I may not be a good poet nor a good writer but I at least I feel better expressing myself through writing.

It doesn't matter if you're good if you're happy.

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Yu

Of the Inactive Period (Part 2)

Many things went through my mind in this period of time. These thought were of the past, the present and also the future. As experience is gained through different events and activities in this period of time, I looked back and also look far forward. The events that happened in the past, as time proceeds everything else proceeds as well. I might be considered lucky as I have let a peaceful and carefree life before I was 16. In other words I have led 15 years of an easy life. Wait, is it lucky? I’d say no actually. Walking on a flat ground wouldn’t do any good; it’s the hills that build up a person.

Looking back into the far past I have never thought about the future. As my memories proceed to the closer past I was looking into the future but saw nothing of myself. Now, I look into a future and see success of myself. From the far past I knew nothing, as it comes closer I had guidance and as it comes to the present I have experience. I believe I truly have great potential. It is this belief that creates the image of success in me. In 1 of my previous post believe I have mentioned everyone has potential in something but I see more in myself. The reason lies within this post itself. The belief, confidence and vision I have in myself.

Looking back in the near past, I have gained a lot but there is loss as well. It is these gains and loss that has educated me and sparked up my potential. The loss I suffer is unbearable and because of that the spark of one area has transferred to another. One can never manage too much at the same time and because of that one must choose what to let go and what not to. I choose to work for what I’ve loss. No matter I can or not it is something I must try. If I do not it will definitely be a regret of a lifetime and no matter how successful I become it will become pointless.

The works I have written so far is not normal writing. I never thought about it in depth before this period of inactivity and because of that I never knew but now I know what it is that I’ve been writing all this while. What I have been writing is none other than the story of my own life. The emotions, the thoughts and the experience I have gone through. It is actually the 1^st ever reason I have created this blog. Even though there are still points I must hide it’s still better to express out what I can. In the very first place these written works are supposed to be where writers express their emotion and feelings.

Within these period of inactivity I had countless flashback on the memories of what I have loss. It is the belief in hope that is keeping me moving. I could just fall anytime but because there is still hope I will still keep moving. This loss is too much suffering for me. Finally, these two posts might not be as educational as all my other posts in the past but within this post are my emotions. Within this post are the feelings I want to let out.

End

Yu

Of the Inactive Period

More than 2 weeks have flowed by since the last time I’ve posted. Why is it that I have not posted for so long? Has no events passed by in this 2 weeks plus? No, in fact many events have flowed by. Is it because I have no philosophy I can input in? No, I have plenty of philosophy I can add in. Is it because I’m busy then? Well, maybe a bit but it’s not the reason. So what is it? It’s mood. Not everything should be done according to mood but if I blog when I don’t feel like blogging has defeated the purpose of doing it. I and a few of my friends of mine have been saying form 4 is like what a year and there are still a few months. So much could happen in this few months.

One of the main event is well, scouts AGM. During the speeches of the ex-COH, I believe many were actually hoping for them to finish their speech quickly. I personally do want it to be fasted a bit but was giving attention to the speeches at the same time. Even though I knew the probability of me being QM is very high but there was still the possibility of me being anything (except TL, FQM and secretary). Well, after all the speeches then came the announcement of the post holders. As the list goes on, the number of posts gets less but the post I want still haven’t come. There was a dilemma there as I don’t want my name to come so fast but I want it to be announced also because I feared I can’t get it. Well, in the end I got it so nothing more to say.

TL: Lee Kin Meng JTL: Chim Li Ching
Secretary: Lyn Kam Assistant: Joel Soon
Treasurer: Tai Kian Min Assistant: Cheong Kah Hao
QM: Leong Wai Yew Assistant: Lee Yew Leung
FQM: Caely See Assistant: Yong Chee Ken
Den Warden: Mathew Woo Assistant: Vincent Tan
IT Head: Geoffrey Kok Assistant: Shannen Kok

I still have not started doing my QM work yet. Well, I don’t think you’ll expect me to do 100% of the work right? Well, maybe I’ll do 70% but definitely not everything alone man. I’m not a normal person but I’m not that crazy. Well, efficiency of work done by me alone will surely not be as good as with help. Therefore works that requires a lot of effort should be done with the help of many people. Most people still haven’t started their work yet but kind of amazing what the FQM did. The kitchen now is like wow. I don’t even know how to describe it.

Even as the scouts QM I can say that I’m quite a newbie in QM. Well, I’m haven’t really been handling with QM stuff before this and I’ve done no post holder jobs in the past years. There are two kinds of people who will be chosen to take responsibilities whether posts, representatives or whatever it is. The two kinds are experienced people and people with potential. To have a successful leading board you need both experience and potential. There are people with both but in the case of not having enough of them you’ll need some with 1 and some with another.

There’s much more to write but I’ll have to pause here and continue the next post.

YU