Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Problems?(no.2)

I've had a post about problems before this. That post was written about 3 months ago. As I've said in that post, almost everyone has problems. Life is just never perfect. You may see another person's life like perfect from the outside but what you may not know is he might be suffering inside.

I stayed back in school today and I had a conversation with Umesh. Our conversation came to a part where if there's no love in our life we'd be much happier. I believe that is totally true. In my opinion, love can either bring you up to heaven or it can kick u down to hell.

Lets go back to the main topic. If you look around you, you may see people who are life happily living their lives with no problem but then is it true? Probably not. Just take myself for example. I am like super satisfied with myself and my life. I'm like just enjoying my life with no problems. Is that true? I can tell you no. I have my problems. I have my cause of sadness as well. Even if you see me smiling I may not be really happy. If you see me looking into the sky or out the window with a seemingly unhappy face. 90% is I'm really not unhappy.

Conclusion, nearly everyone has their problems. Talk to your good friends or best friends. Probably they have problems too. Help each other, try to make each other feel better. If possible, try to help them solve their problems. That's it.

End
-YU-

Saturday, June 23, 2007

4 Ixora

Right, it's my so great class. So called first sub science class. It's actually not a good class at all. Lets see the results. Yeah, the 1st in class got like more than 80% but then 2nd in class got about 70% only. The third goes down to about 69% already. The range of marks between the 1st and last is really really big.

Now, lets go to discipline. Our class has actually made a few teachers angry. Just today, Pn. Norshimah who is my moral teacher got real pissed off. She packed her stuff and just went down. In my heart I was thinking "Woah, sorry wei teacher.". As she went down, I don't know what the hell is wrong with my class, they're like happy. I mean most of them, not all. Actually I wanted to just scold them but I just felt like ah, screw it.

But then after that, the noise increased. My monitor then stood up and shouted. As I remembered, what she said was something like this "Class, can you all shut up ar!? You want to piss another teacher off is it?!" Wesley or Kah Ken or both shouted something back. I wasn't paying attention. After that she was real pissed and she said something like, what kind of class is this lar. Teruk betul. After that she went down to don't know where.

Now here's the best part. All of those made me stood up. I stood up and shouted "Class, what is wrong with you all!? You all pissing people off 1 by 1! Now you want to piss me off also is it!?" Even though I said that, I was 0% pissed. I'm more of disappointed than pissed. I shouted just because I want to scold the class. It was partly because I want to calm the class down also. I don't know if it worked but well, better than doing nothing.

The teacher is actually a good teacher in my opinion. I was actually quite sad that she was pissed off. I don't think she deserved that. If it's because of me, I will sincerely say sorry to her. Now, I don't know if it's because of me but I didn't pay attention anyway so I guess I should say sorry to her. I probably will do it but I'm not sure. I actually planned to become a teacher then a tutor but now after seeing how much stress can teenagers bring, I guess I should think twice.

I guess it's time for me to stop keeping my cool every time and start scolding the class. I am after all the assistant monitor of the class. I never use violence to control people. I don't do it not because I can't, it's because I don't want to. I am after all a taekwondo red-black belt holder. Maybe someday I'll be forced to. Although I doubt that, but who knows.

End
Assistant Monitor of 4 Ixora
Damian Leong Wai Yew

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Friends

Alright, first thing. Caely, if you're reading this yes I'm copying your post idea again. Now, lets get back to my post. Friends. Some have many, some have a few, some are uncountable, some can be counted by your fingers. The amount just differs for different people but then how many are actually true friends? First of all, what would you call a true friend? A person who knows you well? A person who knows your family as well as you? A person who always hang out with you? I myself won't know what really is the definition of true friends. My own definition of true friends are friends who care about you. Friends who will help you when needed.

Basically that's my definition of a true friend. Whether I really have a true friend or not I don't know. Humans are just too intelligent. Anyone can just act as your friend when they actually don't take you as their friend. Even so, I believe that I do have them. It's just a matter of trust. I trust my friends especially my best friends like Han Liang, Jun Hsien and Thomas.

Now lets come to myself. Am I a true friend to anyone? It comes back to the definition again, the definition of care is just a definition of my own. If according to my definition of true friend, I think I am. Care is not necessary to be shown always. I may seem like I care, I may seem like I don't but I really care about most of my friends. Seriously. The 3 names I mentioned up there, as I said they're my best friends. Obviously I do care about them. Even the person I leeched the idea of this topic from I care. I may not show my care to you people but I do care.

End
YU

Monday, June 18, 2007

Tag?

Alright, my 1st ever tag in the blog. Tagged by Kin Meng. This is actually a rather interesting tag. Let's just get started.

Rules : For those who have been tagged, you are required to write a story about one of your crushes, be it a current or a previous crush. To be exactly different from the common tags, there are no questions imposed this time. All you have to do is to write a story about him/her. Also, 5 people will need to be tagged at the end of the post.You must post up these rules before you start writing.

Crush, I think almost everyone who are in secondary school or older have or had a crush or crushes. I myself had a few crushes in the past and 1 in the present. Many people have crushes in high school but are any of them actually true love? I'd say there is but very hard to find. Lets come back to me. Is any of my crushes true? I would say all my past crushes are just forms of attraction of guy towards girls.

In the past I'm super shy in front of my crushes. I was always barely able to even speak a word to them. Obviously I didn't have any girlfriend before. Whether or not I will have it is still a question with no answer. In the present it's totally different. I can totally be myself in front her. I can somehow just talk and everything without being unnatural.

Alright. So, loving someone doesn't mean you must have them right? Even so, no matter what there will be jealousy existing if they coupled or even just being close with someone who likes them. If they're not your girlfriend or wife, you actually have no right to disrupt them. So in these situations what should you do? Avoid, endure and just ignore. That's my opinion.

Even so, I'm sure you would still hope to be together with them. I keep saying in general but actually what I'm saying is actually about me alone. Even though there's no hope, the love will still exist. The love will never fade even through the end of time.

End
YU

Damn, I don't know who to tag. I'll just simply throw a few people from my friend's blog links.
1.Alwin
2.Suk Ting
3.Bryan Yong
4.Samantha
5.Sue Vern

Saturday, June 16, 2007

My posts

It seems recently my blog have been quite inactive. I just kind of ran out of ideas of what to write. There were many many philosophies I thought of but never write out but I have forgotten what they are. I still don't have any idea of what to write even up till now. I just read through all my past posts. it seems I actually don't remember everything I wrote. My own motto of life I actually forgot about it the past few days. Well, at least I remember it now.

In 1 of the past posts I said I'm not qualified to lead because I lack of confidence. Now, I won't say I'm a leader material but what I can say is I think I'm a capable person and I have much more self-confidence now. I think I am capable enough to take posts now. I don't know if I'll have posts but I really want them.

My blog is just full of my philosophies. All my opinions on things about our lives. I never think twice before writing them out. I don't even think before writing them out. I think what to write while I'm writing. It's like how I do my essays. I think while writing.

Actually after writing so many posts in my blog I wonder if anyone actually likes my posts. Are the things I write actually matured thinking? Does what I write change people's thinking, help people or anything like that? Please comment on this. I hope to know. That's it.

End
YU

Sunday, June 10, 2007

School

Cool. It's the last day of the holidays. School days will resume tomorrow. Right now there are many different people having different feelings now that holiday is almost over. There are some eagerly awaiting the coming of tomorrow there are some who want the time to just stop so that the holiday won't be over. Some people would feel that holiday is just plain boring and want to go back to school where life is less boring. Some would feel that holiday without school is just so great they wish it would last forever. My point is there are different feeling towards the end of the holiday.

Of course, besides the fun of the holidays there are other factors that affects the wanting of the holiday to end of not. I personally misses school life and schoolmates. I've always liked school actually that's why I rarely play truant. There are some people who want to study therefore they want school to start earlier.

This holiday came soon after the mid-year examination period. Some people who got low marks would feel that holiday is over so it's time to catch up with studies. That kind of attitude should actually appear in students. That includes me as well of course. Do I have this attitude? Actually I do have this attitude but whether my laziness is stronger or the will to study is stronger I don't know. So, lets wait and see.

Actually school life should be enjoyed by students. We should relax and enjoy the life as a student. When the working life comes that's when the stress should appear. We should just enjoy ourselves while we're young. Well, conclusion is just enjoy your school life. Holiday is over, go to school and enjoy it.

End
-YU-

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Growing up

It's been a while since I last blogged. It's not because I'm busy. Well, I did have something to settle about the camp I went but it didn't took that much of my time. I didn't blog merely because I don't know what to blog about. I've been thinking, should I stop blogging my philosophies and go blog about other stuffs? Well, I won't. My knowledge is actually very limited. There's nothing much I know enough that I can blog about. Blogging about my philosophies is just the best. It merely involves my thinking and no facts are involved. It's all ideas.

Maybe I'll spare 1 paragraph about the camp. The camp was in Templer's Park. It's my first jungle camp. My patrol, the senior patrol was called bleach patrol. I was Kuchiki Byakuya. Why? Because I pan cool, lan si like him. In the sketch I did senbon zakura. Quite cool eh. So end up, I'm pan cool/lan si/poser in the camp. Well, actually all along I am. So, basically the camp was great. So, that's all about the camp.

Right, lets go to my title. Growing up. During this year I feel that a lot of people are starting to change. I guess it's just a part of growing up. I actually think I have changed a lot but I asked a few people and they say I didn't really change. Well, of course I'm still so kind, so gentleman and so cool lar. XP Sorry for my lansi-ness. It's just a part of me. But then again, don't you agree with me?

My point is people just change. Some change more some change less. Some change their main person some just change small parts of them. People change in a different rate in a different way. Some change may be good some may be bad. Change is actually good if in a good way. I writing a blog actually proves my change. I mean, I think many people are shocked that 'I' have blog right? Another thing, my boasting has increased drastically as well. It's merely to get attention. My self-confidence has actually boosted as well. Like I said in 1 of my previous post. There were a few things that came into my life and changed me.

Change towards negative like if you become an asshole then not good lar. By asshole I mean people who treat others unpleasantly. Although sometimes we must treat others unpleasantly also lar but I mean under usual circumstances. As you change you must think yourself is your change bad? If it is you got to help yourself. Stop the change or change again. Your character is determined by yourself. Nobody can help you. Only you can help yourself. You must know yourself, know your problem and fix it. That's it.

End
-YU-