Exam

Alright, I've been saying all the non-academic things lately. How about academics? Well, my mid-year exam is just around the corner. It's just next week if I'm not wrong. Well, I've been skipping lessons, dreaming in class and not revising at all. Does that mean I'm gonna GG in my exam? Well, there's 1 more week now. Maybe I can do something maybe I can not.

Well, I'm the so called add maths pro. I do have a certain amount of confidence in my add maths but I think I still need some work if I wanna get A1. Physics I'm moderate actually cause it involves studying which I never did. Chemistry, I totally understand but totally cannot remember. So what can I do? Study. History? Well, nothing to explain, just study.. English, I don't think there's anything to say. Mod maths, it's freaking insulting intelligence but I never listen to the teacher so I guess I'll have to flip the book once. BM and moral, man, these 2 subjects I really scared GG. EST, I don't know. Lastly, accounts. This subject is my most hated subject. Man, I feel like just screw this subject man. Well, I guess I'll hang on to it for a while. Maybe time will change things.

Well, even with some subjects I feel I'll GG, subjects I need to work on and so little time left, I still aim to get top ten in class. Well, that's what you get from the so called genius. Although, I think it's always good to aim high. 1 of my motto is never try never know. In other words, who know's what's possible and what's know? You'll only know if you try. I actually thought of studying early this year. Ended up I'm just so lazy and just do last minute studies. Well, anyone need help in add maths please inform me. Success not guaranteed but well, it's free. Group is preffered but individual might be fine. It depends on wether or not I have time. Alright, I'm off to go teach people now.

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Acknowledgement?Hope?Incapable?Burden?Emo?

Alright. As i said in 1 of my previous posts, I wanna be the captain in volleyball and COH in scouts and mayb even some other leaders. Why do people want to get posts actually? Well, I guess for some people would be to abuse their power. Well, what else? For me, I want to get posts because i want to be acknowledged. I wanna be somebody. I don't wanna be a nobody. I want people to recognize me, know me. Of course, just becoming a leader in something because you wanna be acknowledged would make you unfit to be a leader. Like volleyball, I have a passion towards it. Scouts I'm starting to have spirit in it.

Well, however much I want to become a leader. The main things is can I? Is there a hope for me to become a leader? Well, I think that everything has a hope. When there's a will there's a way. It's a very famous quote and also quite true. Of course you don't say like I have a strong will to fly so I'll be able to fly. I mean something more logic lar.

One logic thing would be being capable enough to do something. A person incapable of doing something can be able to do that thing if he has a strong will. A person's capability can be changed. Like a person incapable of leading a group, through training and doing it the person can become a good leader. He might even become the best leader ever existed. I don't know if I'm incapable or capable now, you should tell me, but if I really do get the posts I want, I definitely will change into a leader if I am not one.

Ok, I've said in my 1st paragraph why I wanna get posts. Well, a lot of people will say, "Why wanna get post? Get post got more burden, got less time, get stress. So why?" Well, for me, it won't be a burden cause I feel it's worth it. Less time, yea sure but is time really a problem? Definitely not for me. So what if you have less time? It doesn't matter to me, in fact for some people you can stop thinking cause of no time.

Well, even so, there are a lot of people emo-ing here and there. I guess some reasons would be don't have hope, feel that yourself in incapable, having to much burden or stuffs like that. I actually don't know why people emo. I definitely is a non-emo person. Why? I don't know cause I don't even know what cause people to get emo. Anybody have some words on this? I think it's quite a good topic to talk about. Maybe can stop the emo people from emo-ing.Oklar, I guess it's enough.

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Purpose of blogging

What's the purpose of people blogging? Just as a diary? To express out their feeling? To write out facts of their interest? Well, I believe different people have different purpose. My purpose was to write out everything on my mind. But then I realise it's not possible. I am one who needs privacy. I can't just write out everything in my mind. There's just some things I can't post in here. In the end, I'm just posting some part of my life and my ideas of things.

There's alot more I want to write but I won't because there are some people I don't want them to read this. Well, no matter what purpose you blog, I wouldn't say it's a bad thing. I feel that it's best to blog with perfect english as by doing that you can improve your english. Of course if you choose not to it's ok because people do things for a purpose and everything that has a purpose is not wasting time.

For me, blogging is just for self sattisfaction. I feel that it's nice to blog. The good feeling that comes when I'm blogging makes blogging not a waste of time. I'm not blogging to educate people or anything. I'm not qualified to do that. Well, I'm gonna continue blogging eventhough it wouldn't help me in my life.

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Life?

It's been a week since I last blog edi ar. Man, I love to put question marks ar. Ok, Jun Hsien said my post all very long n all in 1 paragraph not so nice so I'm gonna make it few paragraphs 2day. Alright, life. The very existence of life is a very mysterious thing. How is it that life starts to come about? I don't believe anyone can explain that. Well, I think all religions think that god made life. Maybe it is, maybe it is not. Lets just take it that god made life. But isn't god itself a life? What made god exist then? Nobody knows. I thought about it many times. There was once I thought about an idea which is everything is actually a loop. We actually successfully made a time machine in the future and go back in time to create life itself. Kinda dumb right? Well, who knows it might be true eh?

Well, no point thinking about how we exist. Lets talk about purpose we exist. I guess every person has a reason to live. Some might be to enjoy, some might be to help people, some might be to repay to their parents for bringing them to this world, some might even be to save this world. I believe that everyone has their own destiny. I believe even becoming a beggar can be a destiny. Beggars can make people who give them money feel the satisfaction of helping someone. Of course I'm not calling anyone to be beggar. Not everyone is destined to be boss. If everyone is the boss who's gonna work for them? Everyone has their part to play in this world and every part is also important.

Ok, eventhough I believe everything is destined, I believe a person's way of thinking is also destined. Like if a person think that no matter what, if their destined to be rich they're rich and end up being a beggar or something like that is destined. I personally think that way, so I won't just don't care anything. I believe I'm destined to work towards my destiny. Well, what's my destiny? I don't know. How would I know? I'm not god.

I personally thinks I'm not fit to be a leader now. Saying these words itself is already not what a leader should do. I lack self confidence actually. I fear to fail also. I believe that could be changed though. Although I don't know if I will but who knows eh? Maybe through being a leader I can change to be a good leader? After all, I'm a smart fella who always tells himself that he's a genius. But then again, eventhough I say I'm not fit to be a leader now, I actually want to be a leader. I actually hope I could be captain for volleyball and get into the COH for scouts. I guess I believe I can grow to becoming a good leader doing so. Well, everyone should aim high. That's right but as I said, not everyone can be the leader. So, it's ok not to be a leader but doing your best in what you do is what you should do.

Hmm, cool. 5th paragraph edi. Man, I'm writing essay wei, Oklar, I'll make this my conclusion paragraph. In the end, I'd say everyone should work on their interest or their talent and strive to be the best. That way, eventhough you're not the best in the world, country,state or even area, you're the best of yourself which is the best anyone can do. Alright, that's the end for my post.

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Love?

Love. Can love be defined actually? What is love actually. Well, love can be towards friendship, family or your so called other half. Let's talk about the one with the other half. What made people say they love someone? I guess mostly would be feeling lar. At my age, 16, how many people are actually serious? I'd say most of them are not. That does not include me lar. I'm totally serious. Certain people would say they feel like shit if they got rejected, certain people would just wanna know what the other side thinks, certain people will just hide their feelings from everyone, ,certain people wouldn't really mind even the other side doesn't accept him/her. Well, there are more than these I guess but well I wouldn't know. I'm not god. For the ones who feel like shit after getting rejected, yeah you'll feel pain maybe but hei, you love someone doesn't mean you have to couple with them right? For those who wanna know, just ask lar. Oh, if you're the one who is asked, just tell it straight forward sry I don't love you or I love you too. Don't delay things. Don't make them wait and wonder. For those who hide it, come on lar. What good is that gonna do you? Do something. For those who wouldn't really mind, I have nothing to say. Which am I? I won't say. I don't wanna say. Well, love will cause problems. I guess that's true. But at the same time it might also bring happiness. Problems can be solved depending on who are the people. Actually I can write more but about myself so I don't wanna write. My blog will not have those things about me because the blog is public. I still wanna have privacy although I'm writing a blog. That's it lar. End of post.

Genius?(part 2)

Alright. I feel the title is abit lame. O well, who cares? Just took my 2nd accounts monthly test 2day. I'm quite sure I die edi for the test. Well, I don't really care. Screw accounts, add maths is the thing. Today I went for the chemistry sudoku comp. Man, it's quite dumb. Sudoku but replace numbers with those Fe,H,He all those things. What's the point? Well, I did finish but I'm not really sure did I did everything correct and it took quite some time. There are classes finishing faster than us. How can they be so fast? Genius mer? Oh well, I'll just have 2 wait and see who won. Ok, I keep saying I'm a genius. Why? It's just to give confidence to myself. In life you have to take risks(zul's words) but then you gotta be confident when you take them(my words). I'm definitely no genius. I'd say my IQ is mayb around 115 or somewhere there which is just a little above average. If you say smart then mayb I am lar. I just took an IQ test just now. http://www.highiqsociety.org/iq_tests/ this is the site. Well it says my iq is 112. Average IQ is 100 if i'm not wrong. Genius IQ i think would b at least 120. which makes me non-genius. Well, who needs to be a genius? I'm smart enough, that's enough. Oklar. That's it. End of post.

My birthday

Great. It's my birthday. And who did I spend my day with? The people around me in class. Thomas after school until 3.30. And then ZL, CS and CL after that for volleyball. My birthday was not really good the past few years. I can't really remember last time what happened but as I remember it wasn't good memories lar. 2 years ago I remember it quite clearly because something happened on that day. Man, that day was damn siong wei. I thought things were fine on that day but the next day I found out it wasn't good at all. Some of you may know what happened some of you may not. Especially Mike. Oh, I won't mention what happened on the net. I'm not gonna reveal my private life man. Alright, lets move on. Last year. It wasn't that bad really. Just that my plan totally fail that's all. Every single girl that I called was busy(I don't know excuse or what but that's what they say) ended up, I called about 7 guys last minute 2 go 1u. Eventhough I used 1 week 2 slowly call a few everyday, none of them could come. Wth right? Alright, lets move on again. Comes to this year. I ended up spending almost my whole day in school. Just came back at 6. Well, nothing bad happened today except raining so cannot really ply volleyball. Things just don't go as we plan it to be lar. I guess it's just on the wrong day. I sure hope next year my birthday could be a good day at least. Oklar. End of post.

Genius

Right. This year I've been joking that I'm a genius. What is a genius actually? One definition I get is a person with exceptional intellectual power. Some people are just confused about 'genius'. Some people think that a genius knows everything. That's totally wrong. People who knows like almost anything is called knowledgable not genius. A genius can use those knowledge to interpret data but if they don't have the knowledge, they can't do anything. Another thing. genius doesn't mean high IQ. Knowledge is included in IQ and genius doesn't mean knowledgable. But then in case anyone don't know, I don't mean I'm a genius(at least I don't think so lar). I'm just smart. Oh, I got my 1st moral paper back. Guess what? I got 14%. As expected, i suck in moral. That doesn't mean my moral not good. I just don't study. I have perfectly fine moral. Man, I skipped my favourite subject tuition today. I'm gonna have some things I don't know next week. Damn. How am I gonna teach anyone if I don't know? I gotta either try 2 think it out myself or find out somehow. Mid year exam coming soon edi. It's just next month. Man, I wonder how many people are actually ready? I haven't even started revising anything at all. I gotta start soon edi. I don't wanna GG this year. If I can do this then I'll be prooving smart beats hardwork. But then I guess my moral will GG and my BM will be C or something. Oklar. Enough lar. Need to go tuition soon. End of post.

Future

Ok. How many students of my age has actually thought about their future? I know many who don't have any idea yet. I'm not that much better actually. I often think about it but then I always can't come up with what to study. Recently I've thought about it. I've been thinking of becoming a tutor. Tutor in what? That's right, Mathematic subjects. I just remembered I'm actually very interested playing with numbers. That's why I actually planned to take diploma and degree in math. Then I realise. Local college don't have it. Damn it. Unless I go local uni. But to go local U I need to take pre-U which I don't want to take. Then I think again. Actually I'm also interested in engineering. Mechanical engineering to be exact. Before this year, I wanted to study in KDU because it's near and has sibling discount. Both my brothers study there. But then, their engineering courses aren't so good and they don't even have mechanical engineering course. But then again, there's 2 more years. Maybe things will change by then. Oh well, I haven't really done much research on it yet. I guess I'll spend part of my free times researching about it. Oh, anyway. I'm actually teaching a few people add maths now. Maybe I'll see whether I can really make it my career next time. To all who those who doesn't like add maths. What's wrong with u all? It's the coolest subject ever. I tell you what subject sucks. Account which people call free A. It sucks. I don't think it's because it's hard. It just sucks. The subject sucks enough. Plus Mr.Beh? Ahh. Can die ar. I don't know what's his problem. Aih. I won't hate people lar. I just don't wanna see his stupid face. Oh yah. I actually had a bet with Wei Chun in academics. Whoever gets top 10 in class will punch the other fella everyday in the stomach. Dumb bet right? Man. I may be smart lar but I think I abit overestimated myself beginning this year.Exam is on May. One more month. Can't say long can't say short. Oh well. For me I just want it to faster come and lemme get over with it. And no, not because I think I'm smart. I just don't care. That's why I'm so carefree. Everything don't care oni. Oklar. End of post.