9

Right, nine is my favourite number. Like, this is the ninth post of the month. Did you notice for the previous 2 months there were nine posts as well? I didn't do it intentionally. It was a just coincidence. Well same will go for this month. This is the last post of the month. It's been few days of holiday now. Been going out for meetings for my camp quite often these few days. My camp is this Thursday by the way.

Did you think that I was gonna write a post about my life? I'm not gonna do that. All this while I wrote plenty of my own philosophies. Actually why do I write them? I mean I'm just some form 4 student, who bothers about my philosophies? And actually based on what is my philosophies formed? It's just purely my own thinking. A form 4 student's thinking. I don't know why I do it myself actually. I guess I just wanna do it. I won't stop anyway. As I said in 1 of my previous posts, I think that we should do whatever can make us happy as long as it doesn't affect others.

Thinking. When people actually think I guess many things can come out. But do people always think? I myself usually don't think actually. Most of the time when I do something I just do without thinking. I never think about what could happen or anything like that. I guess I should really start thinking before doing anything. So if you see me lagging I might be thinking.

Oh ya, lately I've been posting about lansi and boasting right? I guess boasting is like a sign of me. I guess it's the only thing that made people notice me. I won't stop boasting but I will reduce. Alright, last words of the month. Although it's kind of late, may every student enjoy their school holidays.

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-YU-

Act?Change?

Act to fit in? Change for people? If you say change, I guess if it’s for good we should change at times. Boasting, lan si, I didn’t use to always do it. During primary days I wasn’t a boaster. 1 thing I guess never changed is I’m still that much of a poser. I used to not like it when people say I’m a poser but then I changed.

As time passes I start to like it. Same goes to my name. People used to make fun of my names with “Why you?” or Ikan Yu or maybe something else but I changed my thinking. I think that it’s what makes my name so cool. You can write with just a Y and a U. Not bad eh. These changed happen to make myself happier, that’s all. It’s not to fit in or anything like that.

As time passes I also started to boast and lan si. It definitely helped me become less quiet but I’m still that quiet though. As time passes some more, I amplified the boasting and lan si-ness. Until today, has it gone overboard? I don’t know. If it’s overboard I’ll change and decrease it. Even so, I won’t act like what I’m not in front of different people. I am what I am. If I’m a boaster I boast to everyone.

Why won’t I act like what I’m not? Maybe people like me more if I act? Well, I don’t care. If they like me when I act and not being myself there’s no point. Unless of course certain aspects you just change it forever and make it a part of you then it’s okay but acting is just a stupid thing to do in my opinion. Whether I changed or not I guess I did change as something came into my life. Conclusion, change is fine, act is not.

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-YU-

Boasting? Lan si?

Ok, I decided it was neccessary for me to make this post. Yea, nowadays I boast freaking a lot. I'm lan si in almost everything I do. Well, if I offend anyone then sorry lar. You should tell me that straight to my face if I did. But whether anyone got offended or not I think a lot of people think I do it too much right?

Well, do you think I do it just for the sake of making myself like very pro? That's the wrong idea. I did say that self praising boosts self confidence but actually that's not why I boast. I seem to recall me saying that's why I boast right? If I did, I was lying. I boast because it's 1 of the only things I can do well.

As you all know, I'm a very quiet person. I always can't think of anything interesting or funny to say. There's where my boasting comes in. It's the only think I can always do at anytime, anywhere. When I boast maybe everyone would be like wth but I mean everyone kind of laughs after that right? It's not that I really want to do it that much lar. It's just that I'm toooo quiet that I must boast to not be so quiet.

Oklar, if more than 10 people want me to cut down on my boasting I'll do it. Please tell me, leave msg in my chatbox, msg me in msn ot even sms me.(hp no:0166292685) Oklar, please give some opinions on this.

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-YU-

Exam papers

Right, marks for a few subjects are already known. I rather not say the marks out, if not everyone will say I'm boasting about my marks. Well, I've done fairly well for my science and math subjects. I'm very sattisfied with the marks. Considering the amount of effort I put in I did really well. The one I put in most effort was chemistry which I studied from 1-5am. Other than that I didn't do much actually.

Yes, things are just so unfair. Some people are just able to absorb more with less effort. But then there's noone that's perfect. There is surely something better about you compared to them. Let's just take me for example. My fitness I would say acceptable, my absorbing ability I would say above average and my thinking skill I would say above average as well. Yeah, I may be quite good but then I'm extremely shy and quite a wimp in certain cases.

No matter how capable a person is, if the person is not daring enough to speak up the person is not going to get acknowledge. People wouldn't know them and certain success opportunity might be lost because of that. This is why being capable but no guts is not enough. This is also why being me alone is not enough. Which is exactly why I need to change and want to change.
Oklar. Enough already. Lazy to write more.

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-YU-

Purpose

Does everything we do need a purpose actually? Well, I think that almost everyone is selfish. Everything they do is actually for themselves. Well, maybe you'll ask, how about those people who's willing to sacrifice for others? How about those willing to die for others? How can they do that if they're selfish? I once thought that way as well. But then after many time of thinking, I came up with this idea.

Actually all this actions are actually for themselves. How is it for themselves? Helping people for example. For many people, helping people will make themselves happy. Sacrifice for maybe love for example. Some are willing to let the one they love be with someone else. Maybe you will say, how can this be for themselves? It's such a painful thing to do. But then if they truly love the someone, they'll feel worse if they are sad. In dying for someone's case, if they live not being able to save the someone, they'll live their life with sadness forever. If they save them, they get one moment of happyness for being able to save the someone.

In short, everything they do is just to make themselves feel better. If you deny that you think like this, think again. Are you really not like this? If you ask do I think like this I would say I don't know. I did ask myself this question, do I really do things for this? I never get to answer myself. If you call me to say probability, most probably I think like this. Selfish? Maybe. But helping others make me happier than helping myself would make selfish a good thing.

This is just an idea I came up with. I won't insist that it is true I won't even say it's true. It is for you to decide to think it's true or not. But then well, no matter what, one should do what would make them happy. As long as it doesn't affect others negatively, I think we should just do whatever makes us happy. I don't mean you wanna have fun just quit school or quit work and just go play though. Life might continue for much longer. So, we must make sure in the future we can be happy also. Some people might also choose to just stress themselves to the max for years so they can enjoy the rest of the years they have. For people who are suffering but just delay and take no action, time might not solve anything. You gotta take action yourself and not delay. Ok, that's all.

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-YU-

Exam..exam..exam..

A lot of people seem to despise exam ar? Actually I kind of love exams wei. It's like just burn some midnight oil, help some people and do the paper. Kind of nice life. Don't need to listen to teacher teach, don't have homework. It's nice lar. Well, maybe for some people the worse part would be getting the result lar. To me it's no big deal. I'm not lan si-ing, please read on. I don't get all good marks lar. I'm not a hardworking person, I can fail anytime also. The thing is, I don't really care. I burned my oil so whatever result I get, oklar.

Next week should be the getting back paper week. I'm eagerly waiting to know my marks. No matter it's A,B,C,D or even Fail I still want to know my marks. It's like betting. Whether you win or lose you still want to know the result right? I mean, that's for me lar. For other people I don't know. But however is your result also, don't be sad or anything like tat. It's just midyear. It's just a test so that the amount of effort you need to put in the end year and next year can be estimated.

Ok, now it's time to lansi abit. Anyone don't want to read about me lansi-ing can skip this paragraph. So, it seems my whole night studying chemistry helps. I got A1. That's a bit unexpected. I expected A2. I'm still eagerly waiting for my add maths paper. Actually I'm a bit scared. If I can't get 90+ I'm so gonna get insulted. If i can't get 80+ I seriously got to hide myself wei. If I get any lower(although it's impossible), I think I won't be able to live with face anymore. But then in the end, comes back to my motto. We must have self-confidence which I do so I'm not really that worried.

Ok, no more lansi edi. Actually ar, for people to call you pro you don't need to be the best or be really pro. You just need to be above average. But then, how only people will call you pro? It's actually very simple. Just make yourself stand out. Make people notice you are above average then people will just think you are pro. But my advice is don't do it too much. Sometimes it's not good being so-called pro. People need help will always find you. So, unless you're prepared for people always find you for help, don't do it. Oklar, that's all.

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-YU-

Confidence?

As I've always said, we must have self-confidence. Self-confidence, what is confidence? A feeling of trust (in someone or something). This is 1 definition I can get. Well, actually what I always said is incomplete. Self-confidence, how can you have confidence if you never do the something before or you don't know how to do the something.

Self-confidence won't just come. You have to work for it. Of course things are different if you're a genius but how many genius are there in this world. You think you are one? Think again. As for myself, I'm not a genius. I work for what I want and I trust that my work will help. That's why I have so much self-confidence. You think I have self-confidence in everything? That's wrong. I only have confidence in things I work for.

This post is rather short. I ran out of phylosophies. I'm just holding on to my two mottos right now. I think I'm gonna move away from this topic the coming up posts. Exam is almost over. Just 1 more day to go. I'm gonna do with left hand tomorow. Watch me. Oh, I'm not gonna help people cheat anymore no matter how much anyone begs me.

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-YU-

Y

Ok, so as I've said 1 must have 5 hearts(5 sam). It's good to have it but not necessary and having them alone is not enough. But then although I say we should have these 5 hearts but then if it's not living life but it's about love then it's different. It'll become 1 heart instead of 5(dui oi ching yiu yat tiu sam). In the end I'll still just stick to my 2 mottos. Always chill and have self-confidence.

Alright, exam is actually not over yet but people are taking it like it's over. My friends have been going CC and all. Actually, what's wrong with you people ponteng tuition and go CC wei? And worse is people who keep going CC everyday. Please lar, get a life. I don't understand people who keep playing MMORPG wei. GET A LIFE. Stop playing RO, maple or whatever shit game and come back to the real world lar.

Everytime when exam comes I would think. Should I study? Why should I study? What's the point of studying? Actually I don't know. What do I really gain? Actually, I don't gain much. I would gain something called confidence from parents. That way, I won't get scolded for not studying. Actually I did study lar. Not that much only. And I only study after 12 lar. Well, actually study is not only for yourself. It's also for your family. If you fail, they'll lose face. If you get A1, they'll gain face. For your future it's also quite important(I mean if you work for people). During interview, your employer will look at your results. If you fail any subject, you'll definitely get questioned. Unless you can really come up with a super good excuse, if not you'll give a bad impression to the interviewer. Continue from this, if you can't get a job, you'll have no money. If you have a girl, your girl how? You see, something small from now might cause big problems in the future. Why not just put some effort in? Then you won't fail. You happy, teacher happy, parents happy, everyone happy. When taking exams, it's important to have my motto. Chill and have self-confidence. Having these 2, your mind will be able to work better and you will be able to answer questions better. So remember, always chill and have self-confidence.

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-YU-

Philosophies of Wai Yew

Wow. It's been a while since I've last posted. Exam period just make me super lazy. Exercise don’t want to do, blog don’t want to blog, study ler, only after 12. Before 12 damn no mood 1 lor. Alright, I’ve been telling people about my 2 mottos of life. 1 is always chill (jou yan yiu lang jing) another 1 is we must have self-confidence (jou yan yiu yau sun sam). Seriously this motto is great. Living according to this motto just makes me feel so good. In relation to my mottos, there are things that we need to do. You can’t always chill and have self-confidence no matter what right. You got to do something for you to have it.

To chill, there is nothing better to do than just relax yourself. The best way to relax yourself is to just don’t care about anything in this world and just think of nothing. To have self-confidence, what I do is praise myself. People who know me I’m sure you realize I just keep praising and praising myself. It boosts self-confidence. You think I just praise myself for nothing? NO! That’s the wrong idea. It boosts self-confidence. I’m not lan si-ing for fun!

Ok, according to zhi yang, he said I’m too full of self-confidence. According to me, it’s better to have more. At the very least, I won’t worry much. Ok, yesterday the form 1s rearranged the tables of my class (1ix and 4ix share class). It actually isn’t that much of a problem if everyone just cooperated without complaining at all. Ended up my monitor had to shout (well, she always does). In the end, I get pissed off and I shouted. Yes, I shouted. You rarely hear me shout. And yes, I didn’t follow my motto this time. I wasn’t that chilling. But I guess once in a while shouting like that is okay right? I mean, after all I’m the assistant monitor and I haven’t shout you normal student are already shouting. I mean like, what the hell right? I’m the assistant monitor lar =.=. Wait for your turn lar. Hehe. But hei, I think I quite yeng right that time? XD Okok. Enough of self praising. Well, the main point is, even though you have a motto doesn’t mean you have to follow it every single second lar.

Alright, recently my two mottos have upgraded. Thanks to my eldest brother for giving me the idea. Well, this is only good in Chinese(by Chinese I mean all Chinese and not only mandarin). Well, I don’t really know mandarin so I’ll only say it in Cantonese. Yan yiu yau 5 sam. Sun sam(confidence)hang sam(willpower(I think))sin sam(kind hearted) hoi sam(happy) fong sam(chill). How’s that? Cool? Lame? Please give comments.

My over confidence have caused people to have confidence in me. Even cheating people would look for me. I feel so relief all the science and math subjects are over. Helping people cheat days are all over for this exam. I don’t need to fear getting caught anymore (at least I hope not). Well, good thing is people have confidence in me lar.

A person’s life can change when things get into the certain someone’s life. My life kind of changed when a few things came into my life this year. 1 of the very main is add math. It has given me confidence. It has given me a path to walk in life. It has given me an aim. I who did not have interest is now interested in add math and also teaching people. I who used to think of myself as useless has now look high upon myself. It’s amazing how something can change our life. Of course not only things can change one’s life. People can change other’s life too.

Alright, I’ve written quite a lot. Even how much my philosophy make sense, it’s just my thinking. How you lead your life is your choice, your thinking. You think for yourself, you don’t just follow people. If you think my philosophy is lame, please tell me. Lastly, I repeat myself. Praising yourself boosts self-confidence.

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-YU-